Understanding...

"Trying to understand why when things went wrong, the solutions weren't given until after it was too late." taken from an upcoming drawing I'm working on.
Cupcakes and Aliens

As of the end of this post I am currently listening to "Love Will Tear Us Apart" by Joy Division from the compilation album "Left Of The Dial (Disc 2)" released in 2004.
I swear to soemthing this song came on at random and had nothing to do with the writing.
Life works that way.

Winter...

So, I have a book of poems from mai Sophomore year in HS the High School. Do they call it that because that's when most everyone has their first experience getting high?

Winter:
White Cold
Chilling, Freezing, Blinding.
December, January, July, June.
Burning, Refreshing, Romancing.
Hot, Bright.
Summer

Spencer ??????????, 1989.

As of the end of this post I am currently listening to "Daffy Duck (on the comet)" by Crop Circles from the album "Tetrahedron" released in 2008 on DAT records. Crop Circles is an Etnica/Pleiadians side project with Lotus Omega.

Space Buddha...

So, while rummaging through the closet I found this paper printed out that I totally forgot about, or just plain don't remember printing out, but I must've because I hold it in my hands.
The contents printed thereon is a story that a guy by the name of Oliver Badali had come up with by using the track titles of an album by Space Buddha called "Eternity Project" that was released in 2001 on the Israeli label Agitato Records.
Without further blabbering I give you:

Space Buddha.
Slow... subtle... the mysterious rhythm of the "REAL WORLD" coils upward twisting and writhing itself into an epic majestic harmony. It drops and shift and changes around repeatedly, never lingering too long. The album continues along this path, through the "END OF JOURNEY" and it never stirs far from a bountiful blend of drops followed by hypnotic build, with layers of ripping soundscapes winding throughout one another as seen in "ETERNITY PROJECT". The ever sly creeping electric-guitar riffs and spacey blips decorate the "SOLAR TEMPLE" all around. "IN MY DREAMS", this song is good. And in reality... "THE FUTURE ON EARTH" shows us its rhythmic flow and ultrasonic thumping. So along comes the "SAND DRUMS" and drops the bomb of delicious psychedelic spice gas. Then the clean transitions and ominus flowing of wriggling melodia deal the final stomping slam as the "SILENCE FOREVER" takes hold. - By: Oliver Badali

As of the end of this post I am currently listening to "She Sells Sactuary" by The Cult from the album "Live @ Wembley Arena" recorded in 1989 during the tour to support the "Sonic Temple" album.

Pointless Ramblings...

So, Forest of night for the music that takes you home and tucks you in tight.
Autumn feels fun with cartwheels in the sun, eating apples in a row, side by side with baked potatoes. A bag of corn chips with seeds of flax or red fingers from raspberry snacks? It is harder to hide your smile with no chance of gloom or guile while trying to decide on your next oral sensory trial.

Most things don't seem to be as seemingly easily obtained as they make it sound, red tape, yellow tape, duct tape, you get the idea. Anther fiscal setback leads into another gain only to be set back again in financial strain. To this do you believe that most times most things are mostly bogus findings by bogus windbags who like to hear themselves talk and only get louder when you try to voice your opinion in a body language technique that just means "sit there, shut the fuck up and listen to me and my voice, but try not to fall asleep."

Formula for fun may take time to come around while you sit there sipping your tea contemplating how to go about achieving such ridiculous amounts of time to complete what you only want to be a good time.

As of the end of this post I am currently listening to "Tribute" by Etnica from the Compilation "Destination Goa 1" released in 1996 on Why Not Records.

Writing Journal Paper 3...

So, this next one you're about to read was an assignment that was supposed to be written about ourselves. I hope you can get a glimpse of who I was back in 1994.

ME
by
Spencer ??????????



ENG 98-5
Ms. Sarah L. Dye
April 20,1994

I have been on this planet for a good, solid twenty years. One may ask, "What have you done to change the world?" I may not know what I've done to change the world, but I do know that I'll still be here for a while and I still probably have some time to make some changes. But as of right now, I've lived a fairly average life. Nothing too spectacular, yet nothing too terribly boring either. I 've spent most of my life doing what many kids my age have been doing: going to school, trying to get somewhere, and having fun in the process of doing these things.

I only went there because I had to. Yet I've spent most of my life there. School. I never wanted to go there, and while I was there I never cared about how people saw me. I don't know where the time went while I was there. It certainly wasn't spent on homework or anything else productive. I've yet to see the day when I spend my time doing anything productive.

I suppose this may be the reason why I've only had three jobs in my whole life. In fact ever since about 1992, when I was last employed, I've been your average, college student/jobless scum. It's not that I don't want a job. Sometimes I even apply for one. Let's just say that I want a job, but all of the businesses that are hiring aren't exactly the kind of job I want. I'm looking more along the lines of working behind a counter somewhere, as opposed to working somewhere where I have to do tedious, physical labor. I picture myself ringing up sale at a music store, rather than hauling wood in a lumber yard.

Being a jobless scum and all, means that I must have a lot of spare time on my hands. I'm sure you're just sitting on the end of your seat, anxious to hear what I do with it all. I skate. I ride my skateboard until my little heart's content. Often that could be until three, maybe four in the morning. It seems like I spend half my time looking for someone to skate with. I rarely find anyone, so needles to say, I usually skate alone. A lot of people may think that I'm a little too old to be skating until all hours of the night, but skating is one of the few things that I truly enjoy. After all, what's wrong with spending your time doing something that you really enjoy?

I'm not to sure about what my future may have in store for me. I'm pretty sure that someday I might get a job. After all, I can't be a low life, college student/jobless scum for the rest of my life. I suppose someday I'll have to finally graduate college and support myself. That also means no more skating 'till the wee hours of the night and no more just loafing around, looking for someone to skate with. Who knows. Maybe I'll get lucky and marry a woman who will support me and my boyish habits for the rest of my life.

Okay, the jobs climbed from three to nine, I never graduated college, I've been a jobless scum for seven months collecting unemployment thanks to the economy (I've been sending my resumes) doing odd jobs like house sitting, helping people move, dog sitting and helping Kevin Porter and his De●li●cious Cafe at their booth at Rib-fest serving Vegan ribs courtesy of Upton's Naturals. I'm still skating, looking for people to skate with, just not until 3-4 in the morning. Now, it's moar like I go between nine and Noon. Old Fart Barney hours. I'm not married yet, I still enjoy it all though.

As of the end of this post I am currently listening to "Liquid Hologram" by Inner Action from Side A of a cassette tape that I made on March 4th, 2006.
The original is on the album called "Liquid Hologram" originally released on October 3rd 2005.

Writing Journal 9...

So, this one here is a full paper take on writing journal #7, enjoy.

Spencer ??????????
WJ9
Innovations
APR.19,1994
The RONCO food dehydrator is a new technology that can save you time and money. This new machine can make you fresh, nutritious, and great tasting snacks, that your family can enjoy at home or on camping trips. The food dehydrator is quiet, light weight, and easy to clean too.
One of the great advantages of this piece is that you're making the food so you know exactly what's in it. Another advantage is the easy cleaning process. This is so light weight that the four trays it comes with are only about four ounces each. When your food is done all you have to do is eat it or put it in the freezer for tomorrow in a week or whenever you get hungry. This is one of the most economic food makers on the market today. One last advantage of this is that it pays for itself in the amount of food you make daily, weekly, or monthly.
As soon as you bring a new product on the market the public always wants to know disadvantages of the product. What if you were pressed for time and you need your food quick making food in this may be a bother because some of the things take maybe two to twelve hours to be completely done. If your kitchen is small you might not want this for you it is sort of big and might be in the way. The third disadvantage would probably be the fact that it is plastic and if your clumsy or have children you may have a little problem with this it's plastic which we all know is sort of fragile and could break real easy.

Okay, I just used Your when it should have been You're. also, I told you it's plastic and that it's plastic. Mr. Runon made his appearance in toward the end of the paper also.

As of the end of this post I am currently listening to "Birdy Song" by EVP from Side B of a cassette tape I had made on March 4th, 2006. The album is called "Harmonic Module" released on November 28th. 2005.

Writing Journal 20...

So, what about the muh fuh kids?

Spencer ??????????
WJ20
The Kids
4/19/94
This day sounds like the month and the year when combined. The more things change the more they stay the same. I like to watch the kids in the Hall on comedy central at eight o'clock during the week. may I quote a line "have you turned the boy into a fag yet." These guys are funny youshould watch them sometime they're funny.

Okay, here we have Mr. Runon writing a paper again. You should read the last line over like four more times. Cool, eh? This is one of those journals that I think I just wrote something down so I could say that I did a journal. I prolly had stuff to draw in my notebook or something, who knows.

As of the end of this post I am currently listening to another cassette tape with no label that I had found in my Mom's's basement around 9 this morning. This one is of some old techno/trance stuff I had made around 1997-98. It is so great to come across stuff like this to help depress you as to why you ever stopped making music, even though it was being made as I taught myself how to sequence using a workstation keyboard instead of tracking everything live on tape or ADAT, I had the LX20. I just wonder what would I be making if I hadn't stopped. I've been out of it for almost ten years now. I went by SFM or Astrolab.

Writing Journal 17...

So, this one will be short and sweet, or bitter.

Spencer ??????????
WJ17
Bad Day
4/18/94
Most days are nice and some are fun but the rest all suck.

Okay, I guess I had a run in with some sort of mood adjuster that day.

As of the end of this post I am currently listening to "Dirty Boots" by Sonic Youth from Side B of the black cassette with no label that I had found in my Mom's's basement around 9 this morning. This song was originally released on the "Goo" album in 1990.

Writing Journal 6...

So, these next couple of journals are KNDA short so I'm going to do all four today. woohoo.

Spencer ??????????
WJ6
Last Sunday
April 17, 1994
Last Sunday my friend Sam and I went to Chicago to skate. We arrived at about 3:00 and didn't leave until about 11:00 but during the time 7:00 to 10:30 we to some girls apartment who goes to Columbia College. I guess you could say that we had some fun.
I like skating in Chicago at night because it's colder and it's not as hot. Sam agreed with me on this and we decided to go again next Sunday the 24th, maybe a little later this time.

Okay, I found in the original copy that I had written "we to some girls" when it should have been "we go to" alright alright. The girl was a friend of a girl Sam was dating at the time, they both were living in the Dorms of CCC. I remember the day sub-vividly, it was a beautiful sunny day like 8 clouds in the sky, we were skating the Picasso at Daley Plaza in mid-day, no bust. That girl came carrying a Crate & Barrel bag, she had seen Sam and offered us to stop by later after we were done skating. When we showed up to her dorm, they had made Mac & Cheese with Tuna fish mixed in, they offered and I ate some. Now here is the part I never understood, there was like a serving and a half left in the pan, she told me to just eat the rest of it, so I did. Later, Sam had told me that the girl got all mad because I just came in and ate all the Mac & Cheese. WTFrick? So, to this day I just take the last one/serving of anything. Doughnut, Pizza, Breadstick, Coffee, Cookie whatever.

As of the end of this post I am currently listening to "Mary Christ" by Sonic Youth from Side B of the black cassette with no label that I had found in my Mom's's basement around 9 this morning. The song originally appears on the "Goo" album which came out in 1990.

Writing Journal 16...

So, it all comes down to money.

Spencer ??????????
WJ16
Money
4/15/94

Every yaer for my birthday I usually only get about five bucks maybe $35.00 on a good year. This year I got just that amount and a certificate from my girlfriend for a birthday presnent because she didn't have any money to get me anything. She made a little dollar that she made that instead of saying "E PLURIBUS UNUM" said "I owe you one present" the dollar was so thoughtful I told her not to get me anything but she insisted.

Okay, now in the original journal it does say presnent, I didn't just mess it up here. Next, is the phrase "she made a little dollar she made" really? she made it? Wow, pretty heavy stuff. Oh yeah, and in the beginning I did also type "yaer" in the original copy, the lack of commas it truly great too.

As of the end of this post I am currently listening to "Satan" by the Dwarves from the black cassette tape with no label that I just found in my Mom's's basement around 9 this morning. The beginning of the tape had a mix of Big Black songs and the last two songs are the Dwarves songs, the filler at the end of this side, Side A, is the ad for "the scum also rises" (from the "thank heaven..." album) which gets cut off in the middle due to the tape turning into head cleaner.

Writing Journal 1.2...

So, even though both of these papers say they're from my English 98-5 class, the dates don't add up. Even though the order of the Jounals are in order, it seems that there was some F*&# up and this reads WJ1.

Spencer ??????????
WJ1
Youth Of Today
April 14,1994

Why is the youth of today so cocky towards people who try to tell them pieces of advice? I remember when I was their age and someone my age told me what I was doing might go against me in the future,I tended to respect that and take it into consideration. These kids today think that they can just fuck athority (for lack of emphasis.) and do whatever the hell they want. I mean these kids are in seventh grade and they're already so cocky it's unbelievable they won't even listen to reason. They'll go places skating and they write on everything like it was a friggin' note book and don't throw away their garbage when a can sits two feet from them,maybe it's because asses are so damn lazy. I know that teen are supposed to rebel but this is rediculous.

Okay, so it sounds like I was in Barney status at the tender age of 20, this letter may as well have been yesterday. You may have thought it was a "regular" blog entry if I hadn't put the original 1994 date on the top.

As of the end of this post I am currently listening to the Keith Hernandez JFK loogy episode of Seinfeld while typing this & sipping on this Old Style. Say VanDalay Industries, Say VanDalay Industries!!! And you wanna be my Latex salesman?

Writing Journal 8...

So, Here we go.

Spencer ??????????
WJ8
Movie
4/14/94

On April 11th I went and saw a movie called "Like Water for Chocolate". It's a Spanish movie about a man Pedro who falls in love with a girl but he cannot marry her by some tradition so he marries her sister just to be close to her the movie is really good and it has some sad parts and some funny, I would recommend that you try to see this movie.

Okay, wow that has to be the longest run-on sentence I have ever written. I saw that movie at the small theatre in Wheaton, IL., I don't know if they still show small Indy films or if it's even open anymore due to all the 30 plex's that have sprung up in the area.

As of the end of this I am currently listening to the TV in the other room, I think it's Meagan wants a Millionaire. Plus, the neighbor just pulled up in his meaty mustang with its rumbling muff.

Writing Journal Paper 2...

So, this should be a good read for some, it's KNDA funny to read this after 15 years. I just hung with Justin, His Wife and two kids on Tuesday night. We had home made tacos and salsa, hot dogs, drank some Sol & Dos Equis Amber, for dessert we went to Oberweis for some I SCREAM!!!

TIMES MAY CHANGE BUT YOU CAN'T CHANGE TIME
by
Spencer ??????????

ENG 98-5
Ms. Sarah L. Dye
April 12, 1994

Did you ever have a friend that no matter how much they changed you still talk to them all the time and will probably never forget? That's exactly how it is with a friend of mine, Justin.

I've been friends with Justin for seven years, since about 1987. We met each other through our friends, there were eight of us all in seventh grade and skated together and so we met. All the way through school until graduation we had the same interests.

Justin used to listen to such music as Tad, Mudhoney, and Big Black plus used to skate and like to go to Chicago. Now he likes to sit sit home and play guitar to Johnny Winter, B.B. King, and CS&N. I'm the only one that is still friends with him from junior high. In high school we were friends with pretty much the same people too though we barely talke dto any of the people from j.h. that we met each other through. Justin physically is the saem person I met besides the fact that he doesn't wear the same type of attire he used to, now he wears worn out blue jeans and Birkenstocks.

I guess even though Justin and I have changed so much from one another over the years, the fact the we are still friends really puts a place in my heart and my mind, maybe this is one of those life lessons that I hear people talk about so much.

Okay, that was kewt. Justin now lives in the subby's of Seattle, WA (Samammish or something) with his family, still plays his guitar, jams & records. I guess he pulls out the old Lucero Red Cross deck, once in a while, that he bought in 2003 when we went to Bainbridge Island and I slammed and got a hipper in front of Danny Way, Don Barley & Danger. They should have put that in the Transworld video.

As of the end of this post I am currently still Milking that same Old Style in the koozy. I know I know, I should get some cookies for that milk.

Writing Journal 7...

So, I know I left you all for a few days, or was it only one day? WGAF?

Spencer ??????????
WJ7
EFFECTS
4/12/94 10+10=20 LIKE ME TODAY

Rollerblades
Compact Discs
SEGA
VCR controller you talk in to,to program VCR
splitfire spark plug
CYBERGENICS PHASE ONE
microwave popcorn
spray on hair GLH
RONCO FOOD DEHYDRATOR

FOOD DEHYDRATOR
1.GREAT FOR CAMPING
2.MORE NUTRITIOUS
3.MAKE MORE FOR LESS THAN STORE PRICE
4.TASTES BETTER
5.ONLY $29.95

1.TAKES LONG
2.CLEANING
3.IN THE WAY
4.IT'S PLASTIC IT MIGHT BREAK
5.ELECTRIC BILL

Okay, so I guess this project was to wirte down a list of inventions that have made our life better (or lazier), then to wirte down your favorite and list five Pros & Cons.

As of the end of this post I am currently drinking an Old Style out of the can with my koozy around it to collect the sweat. Old Guys Rule.

Writing Journal 19...

So, I'm thinking of just putting what WJ these are in the title and just start typing them. Now, this might be in conflict with how all my blogs start, So. Whatevs!

WJ19
Bad Girl
4/4/94
Today is what I call deal day,get it four for ninety four. My sophomore year teacher told me that joke it's kind of corny but oh well sue me, My mother is. September Rains is not quite the name I would expect for a porn star,not that I watch them,I just over heard someone talking about one they saw. They said they knew one of the girls and that she went here last year.

Okay, the "so sue me, my mother is" quote is from a Kids In The Hall sketch, BUSTED! I did lie however, I did watch porns back then. I really hated writing back then, but I just wrote something down so I could at least maintain a D for a grade.

As of the end of this post I am currently listening to "Testament" by Squaremeat. This is another Psy-Trance group from Finland that I grabbed off of Thixx n'Dixx back in Wednesday, July 19, 2006.

Writing Journal 18...

So, I know what you're gunna say, "how come this one reads WJ18?" The answer, I have no clue.

WJ18
Gullible
4/1/94





APRIL FOOLS.

Okay, now what a joke that was, whoa! Settle down man, Phew!

As of the end of this post I am currently listeningg to "Their First Smile" by Ash Marslem from an unknown album, I got this one from BeatBiz back on Monday August 7th, 2006. It's some good Joe Satriani/Eric Johnson type Instrumental Rock.

Writing Journal Dogs...

So, yet again I give to you some sunday laughter.

THE WORLD ACCORDING TO DOGS
by
Spencer ??????????

March 08, 1994

More than half the people in my nieghborhood own a dog.
Why do they own dogs? Dogs need love. We keep them to become one with us, so they want to stay with us and play. We keep our pets for company to keep us sane when we need someone to talk to. Dogs want to protect us from intruders and strangers. They sort of act as workers and helpers for us. From being your average home security dog, to the guide dogs that help the blind persons get around the house and across the street.
Most major companies use dogs to guard their property when closed. The Germans used German Shepherds trained to sniff out intruders in camps, so we've used dogs all through out history for different reasons with various breeds. Dogs need LOVE!!!!!


Okay, so I guess the Jews were the intruders in Germany that's why they used Dogs to sniff them out. Ahhhh to be 19 again.

As of the end of this post I am currently listening to "Step Inside" by Moksa from the "Step Inside Mix" that I DWNLD'd back in 2006.

Writing Journal Paper 1...

So, here is an actual assignment that we were given to do in my END 098-5 class, get ready for some laughs. You will notice that I have always been bitter.

THE WORST PLACE TO THINK
by
Spencer ??????????


END 098-5
Sarah L. Dye
February 22, 1994

paper 1 BABY
on campus description
On 2-15-93 I sat downstairs in the carpeted lounge and witnessed some goings on of the students of ECC,most of the ones I saw were just watching television showing of a movie. I could hear scuffling of peoples feet on tyhe carpetfloor,plus the laughter of friends making jokes about one another.
One thing that stuck out like a needle in a hay stack was the loud phones that the school uses. When someone would go outside to smoke a cigarrette I could feel a soft breeze across my face. The crowd around the television just sat there still as a tree while everyone else in the school oblivious to their presence in the lounge. Some people sat along the walkways behind the counselors orifices. Some teachers would be walking with a cart with wheels and it would be quiet for on second then be loud from rolling over the bricks planted in the hallway floor. I guess you could say there was a constant HUMMMMMMMMMM frummm the monotone voices that were speaking but were not understood to me,but then again I wasn't really paying attention to pick out a specific conversation. 11:45,five more minutes then I can leave school. That cold breeze gives me shiver up and down my spine I see people standing by the elevator for minutes when in that time waiting they could have been upstairs by the time the elevator got to the first floor.
I see the signs in the lounge that read "no food or drink in the lounge area" and I see people all the time eating&drinking all the time spilling their food & drinks onto the carpet floor only to pick up the cup or can which has fallen or maybe this time it will be a sandwich,pizza,or SUZY-Q. I cannot believe that grown adults can't clean up after themselves. If the situation were to occur at their home they would have cleaned it up in five minutes or less to try and remove the stain.
I can't believe the amount of respect these "adults" lack in a mature environment such as college.

Okay, I cannot believe the amount of comma spacing that I'm lacking in this paper. All of the errors above are typed just as I wrote them in 1994, yeah and I know the year says '93 in the beginning, but hey, that's how I fahq'd opp orginally.

As of the end of this post I am currently listening to "Yli Saapas Varresta" by Texas Faggot from an unknown album, I got this one from Thixxndixx back in 2006 though. Psychedelic Trance from Finland as far as I know.

Writing Journal 4...

So, welcome to today's installment of Journals of Yore. And now, for your sunday pleasure, I give you WJ4.

WJ4
Portable Prersonal
Feb..8,94

The item I chose is rectangular in shape and about as thick as Six pieces of paper and 2" x 3.5".
It feels like glass.
If it were dropped it would sound like plastic.
The smell and tastes are like nothing in this world.
It looks like a legal document.
BOY,it weighs 1oz. The color is clear with a blockage in between.
Resemblence of thisis like that of a credit card.
My item is important because it's personal.
"THE END"
Before you go outside be sure to bundle up real warm-like.

Okay, if you couldn't guess at what I was trying to describe in this Journal, It was a Driver's License. My brother's driver's that I used to carry around with me after his death in 1990. Gotta keep something to remember him by, right?
As of the end of this post I am currently listening to Talla 2XLC's "Live @ Technoclub (SSL)" Mix from 2005 that I grabbed from Trance Addict dot com.

Writing Journal 3...

So, this would be WJ3 although the dates would have you think otherwise. For the date on this one I typed it in while pressing the Shift key, pretty clever, eh? And yet again the year reads 1993. WTF?

@/$/(#
WJ3

Details

THE item I have with me today is a calculator
My calculator is about 6 inches LONG & 3 inches wide
It looks black,with the engraving SHARP on the top side
The Shape is rectangular up&down
If this were to be set upon a scale it would weigh in at about 3-4ozs. BLACK is the color of this BEAUTY
No outstanding characteristics really just some buttons I don't know quite how they work.
This may resemble a leather biker wallet with the chain hooked to the belt loop.
The SHARP calculator is an important item to me because it helps me with my mathematical problems. I never really heard,tasted,or smelled my calculator but I have felt and looked at it boy is it smooth.

OMG!!! I can't believe how bad this is. No space after the commas, no periods at the ends of sentences and no space between the &. I don't know if I had planned on some sort of subliminal messaging or what, but if you take the words in ALL CAPS they form:
THE LONG SHARP BLACK BEAUTY SHARP.

As of the end of this post I am currently listening to "MindSkap" by Tryon from an unknown album. I prolly got it from BeatBiz or Thixxndixx back on Friday, July 21st, 2006. This is the first time it has been played, it's been on my Mom's compy this whole time.